Where do I begin? How bout, right HERE…
My first Blog… a diary of sorts. I’ve thought about doing this for ages. But what to write? I ask myself. The answer comes immediatly.. Exactly where you are right now. So…I shall begin.
I’m sitting here on my lounge, dog at my side, its 7.20pm on a Saturday evening in late August. The fire is going, dinner has been eaten and the dishes are done. My husband has retired to his end of the house and my boys have done the same. We’re all home tonight. And all is feeling calm and homey. I love this time of night when we all retire to our evening focus. Marty will often play music, practicing his pieces. I will catch up on the latest social media biz or work on my own projects. The boys will watch movies or game, chat with friends…or go out and hang with them.
In a few days time, Eden (19), Levi (16), one of our dogs, Buddy (6 months), and yours truely, will be packing the Holden Commodore wagon, and head east, TEN HOURS, to visit our newly born family member, Violet Gillian Goodburn. Born at around 7.30am, NSW time, on Tuesday the 16th of August, my little Leo Granddaughter.
I can’t wait to meet her.
The family lineage is so rich and diverse.
The mind boggles.
On my morning walks with my dogs I’ve been thinking, “right, so she’s a quarter of my ancestry, so she’s got my parents and grandparents in there, my sons father’s lineage, and Kaelie’s (her mum) parents and grandparents and so on and on, weaving backwards through the generations…..
And here she is, arrived earth side safely and beautifully.
looking like the Indian princess that she is
(Kaelie’s grandfather was full Indian, who migrated to Canada in the 50’s…)
So back to the present and baby Violet…
I simply can’t wait to meet her. Did I mention that already?
Be Still my beating heart and be patient.
Grandmother is coming sweet baby…
I’m turning 55 shortly, the 15th of September to be exact. It sounds like the perfect age to become a Grandmother, and it certainly challenges my notions of how I’d like to identify in the world - an ageless beauty, “You! A Grandma!” you know, disbelief that I could be old enough to be a Granny. It’s made me accept something I’d often like to deny…Yep! I’m getting older. I’ve been here a while. The gray hairs are for real and I decided five years ago to let them come. Bring it on.
But some days I don’t want it. I’ve been feeling challenged by ALL of it lately. The state of the world. Waking up and feeling shitty and tired. Seeing my reflection in the mirror and thinking…Yeah, I do look 54. EVERY. SINGLE. YEARS. WORTH.
But those feelings pass. And I realise that within, I’m still my 5 year old self, My 18 year old self, My 35 year old self. It’s all in there. And putting this website together has been something of a reflection of all that I’ve traversed. I’ve lived an incredible rich and diverse life. I’ve been blessed with good health and good genes. I’ve followed my heart and my gut. I’ve walked paths less travelled. I’m blessed with three healthy sons, a wise, deep, soulful, spiritual husband who has a fierce nature, and tells it how it how it is, but who also loves me with that same fierceness, and would protect me and our sons til his last breath I absolutely know this.
And now the next generation comes
Its so normal and Natural, but also feels unreal.
Like…..really?
So in 4 days time, we’ll get up painfully early, and leave while its still dark. Hopefully I don’t have a last minute stress attack, and hopefully I sleep deeply. And drive the 10 hours to Wagga Wagga in New South Wales. See my beautiful son and his wife, and meet my little Granddaughter and hold her and just be with her.